All I Wanted

And we kissed.

I told to you how it felt
But it was hard to find the right words
Yes, I knew it was real,
All I wanted was to enter into your world

It appears complicated
‘Cause we didn’t feel the same
The truth  wasn’t overrated
And I ran away from the pain…

All I wanted was to feel you, hear you,
Touch you, be all around you,
I wanted to hold you, taste you,
Praise you, kiss you
And be there to love you!

Though I needed you somehow
We didn’t want to commit right now
And I knew you might not understand,
 You didn’t take what I offered with open hands

Please feel me, hear me
Touch me, be all around me,
Then hold me, taste me and  praise me,

You kissed me
But you’re not always there to love me…

 If I wanted I would steal you,
Break you, hate you and then forgive you;
If I see myself without you then I should just let my heart forget you.

I will go on to live, love, pray, laugh and enjoy my life that is made brand new!

Chrysalis

While hiding in my Chrysalis,

I patiently wait for seasons to change;

I am creature that will undergo metamorphosis

But then I’m felling something rather strange;

Like an outcast in my own territory,

I feel the rush of curiosity;

I tried to visit the Elysium

For me to watch the blessed dead

And then,I imagined myself in Pandemonium

So that I could observe the souls of the misled;

After that, a strong wind took me to the Empyrean

Thousand of angels welcomed me

But they didn’t let me greet my God;

They only told me to always have faith,hope and love…

The angels were so wonderful,

That I was truly overwhelmed

They told me that I am even more powerful

‘Cause I can always call upon them from heaven’s realm;

I belong to the lovely Earth and my Chrysalis transformed me into a beautiful butterfly

For I am a caterpillar who underwent rebirth,

However, I still wish that someday I will never die,

Now that I have brightly colored wings for me to fly.

Velvet Sky

Whisper love like a beautiful serenade
As the velvet sky conceal the sorrow
Darling, be not fooled by this masquerade
For you must not deny me tomorrow;

Broken this crystal heart
Is a phantom-like dream;
Compare his images from where you start
And destroy all the screams;

Search for all the pieces
that was scattered all around;
Bring it upon your shade
Then bury emotions to the ground,
(Stab me again with his blade)

Nothing seems empyreal on this Earth
To hold me long in reality;
An Incubus comes to me at night
– He offers erotic pleasure to me
But if you sing me a lullaby,
Thousands of fallen angel might cry;

Hate crawls under my skin,
As the velvet sky rises again;
While purple winds came to my face
Your reflection is all-over the place;

Though you are precious and rare,
The pain you give is hard to bear;
I hope that you are aware
So that I could welcome you inside my lair.

Beautiful Scars

They wonder why I am like this

But the answers seems to bother them

All I wanted is the sweetest kiss

Though I am turning invisible once again;

 

I wounded myself many times

Then I derived pleasure from my pain

-they didn’t understand it all the time

So they think of me as insane…

 

These wounds in my arms already bled

My face was full of joy;

My blood was beautiful crimson red

I wish I could have

Their narrow pathetic minds be destroyed;

 

I need none of their judgment –

I am who I am I am superior and transparent

And Solitude is a true friend…

 

Now that I have these beautiful scars –

It reminds me of love cruelty;

For the tears that fallen like the stars

Makes me think that pain is also a reality;

 

If I stay in the circle of your embrace

Would I be warm and safe?

These beautiful scars that time cannot erase

Should never be ignored For I will not put my life into such waste

Dead Poets Carnival

A sexual attraction In the carival –

Unseen in the naked eye;

While we listen to every note

Of their sad songs, Every look says goodbye…

 

We had our minds spoken –

You even sang me a song;

My heart was easily broken

Because what we did is so wrong;

 

In the dead poet’s carnival

Reality becomes more of a fantasy;

While gratifying ourselves in the carnival,

One night truly felt like an eternity;

 

It was great to lay beside you, As you whisper words to my ears

And I was sure that I had already fallen for you

But I was supressed by my fears;

Twas not supposed to be like this,

I thought of you day after day;

I even longed for just one more kiss

For your face doesn’t ever fade away.

November

This morning I cried

Because I have let you go;

I know I cannot hide,

My pain as well as the sorrow;

 

You want the best for me

When I cannot have everything

And you’ve been a part of my reality

Because time was wonderful and amazing;

 

You told me that I was special and unique

And you’ll always love me;

We even had conversations so deep

But we both know that it is destiny;

It is a painful November;

I lost a lover

But I gained a dear friend;

Now, I will have to remember

That eventually every wound

In time, has to mend.

Rebirth

Be not a hypocrite

Save yourself from condemnation

If one is corrupted like a hostile spirit

It might be difficult to gain total redemption

 

It is better to be in truth

Than to become like a loathful entity

And it is not forbidden to conceal a morbid fantasy

To utilize one’s mind Among the growth and perfection of reality

 

One cannot stay suferior

When it is possible to have absolute equality

Two antagonistic principle of good and evil,

Two creative powers,life after death

And the final triumph of good over evil

Still we are people with different beliefs

Because we have our freedom given to us…

 

Our return to innocence

Is like a zephyr with purity of a divine soul

Like a celestial being personified on Earth

And though we are different in our beliefs,

I should say that after one’s death

There might be a rebirth

Crash and Burn

’m not looking for an angel

I’m just here to wait

I’m not drowned in anger

And I know that it’s never too late

You forgot where your heart is

Won’t you let me find it?

You stayed inside

And you shut me down

If you crash and burn,

You’re not alone

 

I’ve learned my lesson now!

It’s ok to be angry

But never ever let go

If you get lonely

Won’t you let me know?

Look me in the eye

And tell me the things you dare not show

 

Wake up from the nightmare

Tell me how you feel

I’ll take you anywhere but here

Make up your mind

For you to see it clear

Goodnight darling,

If you need to crash and burn,

You are never alone

 

How’s your life there?

Is it all you wanted?

I’m willing to hold you,

I won’t take you for granted

I’ll crash and burn with you

I’ll call you my beloved

Cookies and Scream

Hey now, I’m writing to you

Not to tell you that I miss you

I just want to know how you feel

I want to ask why you broke away from me

When you lie, do you see me?

 

Remember the days

When everything was alright

The things we see seems OK

But it has been a long road

Without you by my side

And it’s like a lost memory of mine

 

I ate cookies and I screamed

“I don’t miss you!”

We cried and it’s not OK

I’ve spent so many years just to learn how to survive

You’re not always by my side

So I don’t know why we scream

 

I’m writing to you

To let you know that I’m still alive

Keep your eyes open wide

‘Cause you were a hero in my eyes

It’s not OK but I guess we’re alright…

 

How did we fall apart?

When did you break my heart?

Sometimes I forget how to feel

And I wonder how you sleep at night

Remember me when I break down

There’s nothing left but confusion

But I’ll be fine this time,

‘Cause I don’t miss you anymore.

Silence

A mundane common fool

Trusted his youth without the pulse

A shallow kind of chance

Seems not a romance for the dainty silence

 

Whisper to the phantom

Like the silver shining of the moon

Life will sink to the bottom

And we shall rise very soon

 

The scent of the night

Must change for my darkest secrets

Don’t follow me wherever I go

Death for all the hypocrites

And eternal suffering for my foes

 

 

The colors of grey

Overcast the sky

The shadow of redemption

Often seems to die

She’s dominated by temptation

But she doesn’t want to fly

 

Strangle his weakest faith

For him to choke on his beliefs

Let him grow in fear and hate

Then be united with the dance of thieves

 

There’s no absolution

As you can see on my face

A heart of alienation

Shall condemn you for all of your days

And the bounty of his hunters

Shall be in a hiding place